Andy's Blog » mechanisms http://www.andys-blog.com Just another exercise in vanity Mon, 06 Sep 2010 13:09:22 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 Dark mood http://www.andys-blog.com/2009/02/26/dark-mood/ http://www.andys-blog.com/2009/02/26/dark-mood/#comments Thu, 26 Feb 2009 12:43:54 +0000 andy http://www.andys-blog.com/?p=552 In somewhat of a dark mood at the moment.  This tends not to be a usual state of affairs, although reading back on some of my previous posts that would seem to be a wee bit of a lie, however I do tend to try and look on the brighter side of life.  My usual way of describing myself would tend to bear this out;

6’1, Blonde, Idiot

Or how others describe me;

Muppet
Lurch
Long piece of damp string with knots in it

However every so often, having to internally deal with all the home-based drama’s and other concerns, the mood does turn darker and you allow yourself to dwell on your own insecurities, anger, sadness, self-worth and direction.  Not a glorious thing to behold or admit to, and probably not a very healthy way to proceed, but it’s a mechanism that works for me.

No dramatic outward signs fortunately.  Just, as friends who know me well will testify, a withdrawal into myself, an avoidance of others for a while, a quietness and a losing of oneself into work or activities (gym, swimming, karate, computer) and more importantly music.

Currently listening to the soundtrack of ‘Batman Begins’ by Hans Zimmer & James Newton Howard.  Deliciously dark and, as all music written by Hans Zimmer, powerful.

 Normal service will resume shortly, with all issues buried out of sight once more..

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