Dark mood
In somewhat of a dark mood at the moment. This tends not to be a usual state of affairs, although reading back on some of my previous posts that would seem to be a wee bit of a lie, however I do tend to try and look on the brighter side of life. My usual way of describing myself would tend to bear this out;
6’1, Blonde, Idiot
Or how others describe me;
Muppet
Lurch
Long piece of damp string with knots in it
However every so often, having to internally deal with all the home-based drama’s and other concerns, the mood does turn darker and you allow yourself to dwell on your own insecurities, anger, sadness, self-worth and direction. Not a glorious thing to behold or admit to, and probably not a very healthy way to proceed, but it’s a mechanism that works for me.
No dramatic outward signs fortunately. Just, as friends who know me well will testify, a withdrawal into myself, an avoidance of others for a while, a quietness and a losing of oneself into work or activities (gym, swimming, karate, computer) and more importantly music.
Currently listening to the soundtrack of ‘Batman Begins’ by Hans Zimmer & James Newton Howard. Deliciously dark and, as all music written by Hans Zimmer, powerful.
Normal service will resume shortly, with all issues buried out of sight once more..
